You want me to be the best i can be
But with every passing day, your wishes grow
Ever more burdensome to bear.
And i get crushed under the weight of your wishes
Like leaves getting trampled underneath your boots
The crunch of the leaves like my soul getting crushed
I know you expect a lot from me
To achieve a 4.0
To establish good morals
To go to college
To have a career that you deem worthy
So i try as best as i can
I lift your expectation as if i'm holding up the earth
And if i stumble, if i fail
The price is too be buried underneath those dreams
Those dreams of showing you how good i am doing
You want me to be the best that I can be
So i do what i can to show you
That i'm trying to be my best self
And you inspire me everyday to work harder
Your expectations steer me daily
Shaping my every move
To try my hardest in school
The A’s lineup on the wall, like trophies tall
But they didn't come free
Endless nights spent doing work
My hands tremble like a flickering candle
I hear your wishes banging on the door
The door knob rattling
Trying to get into my head
Your wishes have turned into a shadow
I see your shadow following me
Lurking in every corner that I go to
But i know this is for
My best interest
You push me because you truly care
And you push me because you see my worth
Hi, my name is JohnPaul Villagomez
But everyone calls me jp
You have always been there for me
Your expectations carve my path
You want me to become someone that
I will be proud of
I truly appreciate you more than
The words that come out of my mouth will shout
From every lesson that you taught me as a kid
To the lessons you still teach me now
Even when i wasn't someone you wanted me to be
You were still there, because you knew eventually i would be
I hope one day i can look back at
Those expectations and lessons
And one day I will be so thankful that
You helped me become that person
That i am today
You carved a path for me that i followed
So in the future i can finally pave my own trail
Your expectations are burdensome to bear
Sometimes I wish they weren't there
But the more i grow up the more i realize
That not everyone has someone like you
Not everyone has someone to look up too
So i appreciate everyday that those expectations
Are hovering above my head
Because one day they will be gone
So i hope i have made you proud
And if not yet then i hope i will in the future
And become the person you want me to become
Because i'm still trying to convince you
My shadow is something worth following
Because i still chase the light, hoping one day
My shadow is one you'd walk beside
But first I need to convince myself that
Im someone worth becoming
--JohnPaul V., 9th-12th Grade