Still waiting

I’m scared. 
They called me. Nobody calls me. 
She said they saw something it’s doesn’t belong 
“I’m sorry” 
I’ll have to have a biopsy. 

I’m the healthiest I’ve ever been. This has to be a mistake. 
They have to do more tests. 
This is a nightmare. Shake me awake! 
I just want this over. I just wanna know!! 

Everyone is nicer that’s a plus. I guess. 
I’m seeing this and people in a different light. 
Mostly spend the day trying not to stress. 
I sit now and enjoy the sounds of the day, the silence at night. 

Why is this happening? I’m only 34. 
Do I even have the right to cry? 
I wanna be here next year. 
No matter what they say I will try. 

None of this makes sense. I’m sorry. 
You’re the only people I’ve told. 
But I don’t even really know. 
I’m still waiting.

--Emma S., Adult