If I Knew

If I knew I was going to cry 
If I knew my heart would drop 
If I knew my world was ending 
If I knew I was turning to ashes 
If I knew my body was going crazy 
If I knew my life was ending 
If I knew my parents didn't love me 
If I knew my life would have no meaning 
If I knew that my brother didn't want me with him 
If I knew my mind would turn against me 
If I knew my luck run out 
If I knew that God no longer loved me 
If I knew what it felt like 
If I knew how lonely it is 
If I knew how beautiful the sky is 
If I knew that I was incapable 
If I knew my life was gone now 
If I knew I'd die in such a forbidden life 
If I knew that my world loved me 
If I knew that my god loves me.

--Zy myliah S.,6th-8th Grade