a doe in woodward 7.27.2024

i went to the park with my boyfriend 
we sat by the river 
eating in-n-out 
reminiscing about the past 
across the stream i saw her 
a doe with eyes as big as the earth, 
with fur as tan as espresso, 
her speckles as white as snow 
we held each other's gaze 
in that moment we shared heart beats 
i could feel her curiosity and awe 
i’m sure she could feel mine, too. 
i pondered if her family was nearby 
did she have a father, too? 
are the antlers on the buck’s head 
supposed to mimic a crown on a king? 
is that what it means to be a father? 
to rule over others? 
what if it was his forest 
and all, including his daughter, were trespassing 
how cruel to think that there is a chance 
of me and her being one and the same 
aching heart, 
is this what god meant when he said we are all his creation? 
or maybe 
it’s supposed to represent 
the powerful force that is a father’s love 
the bones branching over his head signify 
just how strong his devotion is 
maybe it is the personification of a promise 
“i will always protect you” 
when the doe in woodward left, 
i thought of how cruel yet beautiful god could be.

--Ruby M., Adult