until you see my hurt on the outside

Everyone just thinks depression is an illusion like it doesn't
exist, as if no one that struggles with it matters, it's not till my
hurt is visible on the outside that i'm noticed, is that it or is it
just too much for you to want to help me? Even then I'm told
that I'm emotionally manipulative. Yes because I wanna cry
all the time, I wanna hurt myself. Yes, I want attention. if I’m
not bleeding I’m not hurt, if I’m not broken on the outside I'm
not actually broken. It’s not until it’s too late and we are
bleeding that you actually care. It's not until we leave this
world that you care because as u said “it must have been all for
attention” why can you see that i was hurting? Why couldn't
you listen to me and why was it so hard to just be with me?

--Kit (Sofia) R., 9th-12th Grade

Library note: 
If you or someone you know has thoughts of suicide please seek help:  please call the CA Youth Crisis Line at 1-800-843-5200, 24/7 or call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255.