Nostalgia

is nostalgia an illusion?
no matter, it’s lovely
after all, my life shines best
in retrospective light

through our memory
we live the life we wish we had
there is a sparkling filter
painted over my past

I see my childhood as a montage
flashing and spinning
inside out and upside down
absolutely brimming with color

the de ja vu hits
when I see my old house
I remember the smells,
the lights and the sounds

the present now bores me
the future is frightening
but the past can not hurt me
not while I’m remembering

I forget all those days
I did nothing but wait
for the future to come
when I hated feeling young

a smile breaks upon my face
and I wish I could go back
I forget the tears I cried
and instead, I laugh

the delusion of fun
is the only thing that counts
because, looking back, I lived
like time was running out

--Riley M., 9th-12th Grade