Apology Letter

I’m sorry you weren’t strong enough to walk away
from toxic situations, damaging altercation 
leaving you with mental complication. 

I’m sorry you didn’t listen to your intuition. It was 
just a premonition in order to keep you in the 
right position on your soul mission. Now the 
universe has ordered a search and rescue mission.

I’m sorry you lied to yourself, lowered yourself 
just to prove yourself now you hardly recognize 

I’m sorry you couldn’t stand up for yourself, your 
truth, your voice, your strength still waiting, 
collecting dust on a shelf. 

I’m sorry for allowing negative thoughts to plague your mind, 
couldn’t leave them behind, feeling so
confined, words so unkind, such an invisible bind, 
mental contract you signed.

I’m sorry you cut your wrist, the pain you couldn’t 
dismiss, your feelings always on a waiting list, left
with scars to reminisce. 

I’m sorry you never experienced real, 
unconditional love. Always deprived of, forever 
dreaming of, feeling unworthy of. 

I’m so sorry it took you so long to be ok. It 
should’ve never been this way, a destructive 
ballet, feelings downplayed, heart full of decay, so much foul play, life story so cliché.

But now its time to let everything fall away, choosing to
break away, file the past away as I ascend on this 
new journey and start a new day. 


--Stacy S., Adult

Library note:
If you or someone you know has thoughts of suicide please seek help: please call the CA Youth Crisis Line at 1-800-843-5200, 24/7 or call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255.