If You Only Knew

If you only knew
Just how much,
I truly love you.
It pains me everyday
Knowing I could have
done things, differently.
You gave me a chance,
But I ruined it.
I was stubborn,
I was stupid.
And then I lost you,
So now I must live
My life with regret.
I play in my mind,
over and over again,
that moment,
I could of had you back.
I chose not to say anything,
Because, I wanted you hurt
the same way you hurt me.
I succeeded in the end,
but lost my best friend.
I'll move on eventually,
You already have I see.
Oh, If you only knew
How much I truly
Love you.

-- Misty R., Adult